I have lost something and have been searching everywhere for ages for it, days, weeks even but I cannot find the damned thing isn't that so annoying? what have I lost? oh only my bloody willpower!!!
As the end of term melted into the first few weeks of sweet holiday freedom I went a tad wild, my routines were smashed to itty bitty pieces as I enjoyed going out with friends, to clubs and bars, exclusive and classy mind you, no dives for Lois, lol. we partied and yes drank the night away. my usual "omg I feel so depressed" the morning after a drinking sesh started to abate. (totally not a good thing for me, I will have to inform you of that whole debacle soon otherwise you'll definately not have the foggiest clue what I am on about or why its such a big deal)
So back to the tale I started to do it more and more until Holy Moly I bought a bottle of champagne, my poison of the moment, to chill with a night in. No biggie as my sis settled for her usual choice a chilled Pinot, but for me one night turned into two then three, then four, before you know it I was enjoying a good few flutes every night for the next 4 weeks. and with alchohol comes the drunken munchies . some people have sex one to four times a night well I had the munchies and was very sloppy with my 'getting rid', every night I would have crumbs on my other pillow from the 3 choc chip and hazlenut Maryland cookies I would place there in the middle of the night to eat when I got hungry- which i can assure you I always was. Therefore in the morn as you can imagine I looked like I was about to give birth to triplets! I would feel shit but do the same thing that same evening iI was having fun and told myself i will just lose the weight when I stop at the end of the week.
Ok so today the 13th July my willpower seems to have come back turns out i gained only a couple of pounds but thats beside the point. The return of my willpower was important as it didn't just cover food it went for everyhting else in my days. i was so lax and far to relaxed but the food thing was main i admit, However i miss the champers but i cannot go down that road....again, not the dark days!!!
